December 30, 2003

Kisses in the wind

Filed under: Adoption Poetry — Tamra @ 10:12 pm


I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that’s how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are… what’s taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin…
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I’m doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you’ll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.
— Unknown

The waiting is so hard! I hope we can get you home soon Rani!

December 25, 2003

It’s Christmas…

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 11:12 pm

I can’t believe it’s Christmas and I still have no word on our NOC. When we mailed the dossier out to India way back at the beginning of October, I daydreamed about how we would surely have our NOC before Christmas. And here we are…Christmas day and no NOC. *sigh* The waiting is going to be so much more difficult without the Holidays to distract me. The boys and I will be starting up with homeschooling again next week, so that will help the time pass a little faster. Please keep us in our prayers as we try to be patient.

On a happy note, I want to send out a congratulations to Jenna on the arrival of your new son! I’m so happy for you!!!

December 17, 2003

She only took pictures…

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 8:12 am

I’m sitting here trying so hard not to cry. I just emailed my agency worker asking when the video will be sent and she says there’s no video. None nada….I dont know why this bothers me, it shouldn’t. I mean I do have video of her allready from March and May….but I was so looking forward to seeing her you know? The pictures sure are sweet, but it’s so hard to get personality from pictures. I was hoping to see how she’d changed, and to see some of this “naughty” behavior she keeps telling me is so bad. I was also hoping to see if her eyes were getting any worse in comparison to last time…Dang it, I’m so bummed about this! She had to concentrate on videoing the kids who need families. This I definately understand, but I can’t help but be completely 100% dissapointed and sad! :sigh

December 16, 2003

We have new pictures!

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 11:12 pm

Oh I wish I could share them with you. But Indian law forbids it. She is so beautiful! Her skin is a lovely shade of brown. She has very short dark black hair, beautiful big brown eyes and a smile the goes from one side of her face to another. She’s coy and cute and I wish I could go get her right now! I can’t wait for the videos to arrive, I’m so excited!

December 13, 2003

On pins and needles!

Filed under: The Paper Trail — Tamra @ 9:12 am

Our agency worker is supposed to be back from India any day. That means new pictures and video of my daughter and I can’t wait to see them! The most recent picture we have was from May so I bet she’s grown so much. I so wish I could’ve gone with her to visit, but alas, my poor bio baby would suffer. I’ve been thinking about her so much this week. Imagining her playing with the scrapbook I sent her and the little doll. Trying to hear her voice in my head and wondering what our first meeting will be like. Writing down mentally the thousands of questions that I want to ask her caretaker. And wondering when we will get our NOC.

Our dossier has been in India for 2.5 months. 73 days and counting LOL. Most people have been getting their NOC in 2 months or so, so I’m on pins and needles hoping it will be soon. I know that all will happen in God’s time, because He can see the big picture, but it’s still difficult to wait, when you’re wishing it would be sooner rather than later.

December 1, 2003


Filed under: The Paper Trail — Tamra @ 12:12 am

So sorry there haven’t been any updates in a while. My computer crashed and I’ve been offline for over a month.

No news on the NOC(non objection clearance) yet. If we don’t hear in the next couple of weeks the timeline will look more like April instead of March. But we are hopeful. 🙂

As for the news, Teri Bell our agency worker is at the orphanage right now visiting our daughter! I’m so happy that someone is visiting her since we can’t. I wish with all my heart that I could be there, but I can’t leave my 18mo old baby twice. It will be hard enough to leave him once.

Here is the email we recieved from Teri today…

“Greetings from Basundhara,

Your daughter has received her hugs and kisses and is doing great. She LOVES her doll and is taking it around everywhere taunting the others. By the way she has turned into quite a little imp and tease. With a big smile on their faces, the staff is not telling me that she is a naughty girl (believe it or not, that is a compliment around here). For the first time, she greeted me with a huge huge smile and ran up for a big hug. She said, it’s Teri Aunty. She has not stopped hugging me and she spends most of the time giggling. She is just a joy. Now that she has the run of the orphanage she is going everywhere and is a bit of a ruffien. She’s fallen a few times and ended up with a few cuts and bruises. So much for the pampered little girl. They’ve cut her hair really short but she is still looking as cute as ever.

More later if possible. Teri”

Isn’t that wonderful?! I can’t wait to meet my little troublemaker!!!