February 29, 2004

Well, it’s been another month

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 9:02 am

It’s been another month. I emailed AIAA to see if they will email Basundhara and find out if they asked for a new medical again or finally granted us NOC. It’s very possible that they are delaying it again, but I’m hopeful of course, as I should be.

Oh and I wanted to put out here in Cyber Space that I’ve made a new friend! Her name is Cheryl, she has 2 sons, is LDS, homeschools, and believe it or not is adopting a little girl from Pune, India who is one month older than Rani!!! She lives near me! :sing “Hi Cheryl! I’m so happy to have met you and can’t wait to get together! ” Cheryl’s family recieved their NOC last month after waiting for 7 months. We’ve been waiting for 5 so far. They are just waiting on their second court date and they’ll have guardianship and be able to go get their little girl! Congratulations Cheryl!!!

February 18, 2004

A new video

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 4:02 pm

Oh last night I went out to a movie with my girlfriends. It was refreshing and exactly what I needed. When I got home I grabbed the mail and what to my wondering eyes should appear? A new video of Rani! I rushed inside, watched the video once, and then watched all of the 4 videos I have of her in consecutive order.

I can’t believe how much older she acts. The pictures definately show she has grown but seeing her interact with other children, it’s obvious that she is fast leaving babyhood behind.

My favorite part of the video shows Rani being quite coy. Teri is trying to get her to say “Mommy, and Daddy” and Rani is having none of it. She keeps smiling a mischievious smile at Teri and pretending not to understand what is wanted of her. Finally one of the Ayahs starts talking really fast and loud to Rani in Oriyan and at the end of that speech Rani pipes up with a “Mommy” and a “Daddy” right quick! She also demonstrated her counting skills by saying a few numbers in English. I love that they are working a little on language with her.

Apparantly she has loved her little scrapbook to death! I made her a scrapbook where the pictures velcro onto the page. She has them all mixed up now and the workers giggle because under Daddy’s picture it says “Bah ih” Brother. :rofl

I have to admit I got all teary when she said Mommy. Oh I long to get her home! Please pray that we will hear good news soon! Thanks!

February 17, 2004

We just got measurements for Rani

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 12:02 pm

Here are Rani’s latest stats

Height: 84.5 cm (33.3 inches or 2 feet 9 inches)
Head Circumference: 46.8 cm (18.4 inches)
Weight: 10 kg (22 lbs)

The funny thing is here are Ollie’s stats
Height: 34 inches
Head Circumference: 19 inches
Weight: 29.5 lbs

She’s 10 months older than Ollie. I bet he’ll always be bigger than she is! :rofl

February 13, 2004

I’ve found a really neat website on Nystagmus…

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 10:02 am

Why didn’t this site come up on searches when we were getting started? A friend’s husband who has nystagmus sent it to me.

Nystagmus Network

At first some of the stories made me nervous, but now the more I read the happier I get because it seems that with Rani’s type of nystagmus she should lead a normal life.

I also found a nystagmus email list and the people on the list are being so helpful! One man is looking up agencies in Orissa that might be able to help present more information to CARA about nystagmus. I will of course have to OK it with the orphanage first, but who knows, maybe it can help.

February 9, 2004

Well….we have news…

Filed under: The Paper Trail — Tamra @ 9:02 am

and it’s not necessarily good news. *sigh*

Apparantly the reason it is taking so long to issue our NOC is they are having trouble believing that Rani has special needs and keep asking for more medicals to be done on her.

Teri has no doubts that we will be approved to adopt Rani, but the fact of the matter is, that they may take their sweet time about it. *sigh* so at this point we have no idea if she will even be home before her third birthday in July. 🙁

I know that the Lord is watching over my baby and that she will come when she is supposed to. So now I guess I just sit back, relax, and, and wait some more.

February 7, 2004

I started a webring!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tamra @ 5:02 pm

I started a webring for adoption journals. Please those of you readers with journals, please join up. Maybe we can get others to join as well. 🙂


You have been invited by the RingMaster, modernmother, to add your web site to the WebRing called Adoption Journal.

On WebRing, similar sites are grouped together in Rings and each site is linked to another by a simple navigation bar. Rings are created and maintained by the RingMaster, who determines the look and feel of the Ring, approves sites submitted to the Ring, and encourages others to join.

To become a member of this Ring, visit this URL:

Need Help? Visit WebRing online help:

I am dying here…

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 12:02 am

Some days are so much harder than others, and I feel I have no place or anyone who understands to vent to. Sometimes I feel like a big baby. I feel like I can’t break down. I need to be strong for my daughter’s sake and my family’s sake. But honestly, some days I want to just be vulnerable and cry my eyes out. Today is one of those days. It is 12:17 am. I’ve been wanting to cry all day and I am still not letting myself. I can’t sleep, it’s driving me crazy. It’s like I go along fine for a while and then I start to panic. I recall panicking last month around this time. Maybe it’s hormones, I am due to start my period. But around the 12th we found out the news that they were reviewing our case. I thought, oh wonderful! We should have NOC by the end of the month. Do you see the date at the top of this entry??? It’s is February 7th! Almost a full month has passed. I have been fine, but the last couple of days have been killer. I feel like I’m on pins and needles and I’m getting killer anxiety. I really need some information. When I asked Teri(via email) if she could find out about where we stand while she’s in India she never responded. That totally freaked me out. I’m imagining all sorts of horrible scenarios, but the absolute worst would be for her to come back to the states on Monday with the news that we’ve been denied clearance to adopt Rani. We’ve invested our hearts and souls in this little girl for over 9 months now. In my heart she is mine, yet I know in reality she is really not. She belongs to India, and they could turn us down. I don’t think I could bear that… OK so join me, here in the dark…all alone…maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to cry now? I WANT MY BABY!!!!


February 5, 2004

Tracie is in Beijing!!!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tamra @ 4:02 pm

congratulations Tracie who is in China to get her daughter! I’m living vicariously through you!!!

February 3, 2004

Another note from Teri

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 9:02 am

Teri says…


In a hurry. Love the horse, wearing the dress it fits perfectly. Back in the office on the 9th. Teri”

LOL I’m just imagining her wearing that sweet pink dress, her bronze skin shining, and hopping all around on that horse. Oh how I wish I could go get her now! no news on the NOC either and I was really hoping….sigh Now it’s looking like we won’t go get her till May! :hmpp

Rani’s Dolly

Filed under: Mama Musings: How will we cope? — Tamra @ 9:02 am

Just got my film developed and wanted to share the doll that I sent to Rani back in November. I wish I could show you the pictures I have of her loving it to death, but I can’t so the doll will have to suffice. I made the clothes and painted the bindi on her head.


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