and she is even available for adoption.  Why am I not elated you may ask?  Well, that is because she was not offered to our family.  She was offered to Holly(who is waiting for HIV+ babies) and she couldn’t travel this week, so she was offered to another family who is travelling this week for a little boy and wanted to adopt 2-3 kids. Both Holly and I are pretty broken up about it.

I’m starting to wonder if we’re even on the list at all.  We are of course, but it seems to be less of a matter of who was first, to more of a matter of who can travel soonest or who already has one referral and is hoping for another.  Of course it would be crazy to think I could leave right now anyway.  My son is in the Nutcracker and it takes a lot of time out of our lives right now, and I just don’t want to abandon him during Nutcracker season.  Also Christmas is coming up and then I am going to be the second shooter for a wedding on the 29th.  So the earliest I can travel is the 30th anyway.

I’m starting to wonder if this is really going to happen for us.  I’m starting to think it will be months and months more before we get to go.  I’m so baby hungry and each time I’m ovulating I’m sooo tempted to just get pregnant.  But I just can’t do it.  Yes, I realize I should be grateful I have the option.  I AM grateful.  But the Lord has led us down this path and I have to see it through to the end.  I have to see how it plays out.

I’m trying soooo hard to be patient.  I still can’t believe it’s been a month since we were supposed to be leaving for Zambia and not one baby has become available in all that time.  I’m soooo baby hungry.  Finn has started walking and really talking and I keep staring at all the baby girl clothes I bought and wondering when she will be born.  I’m so glad we didn’t go though, because I would have had to come home empty handed.

“To:  Disney

Disney films, toys, clothing, costumes and other memorabilia can be found throughout modern American culture, as well as being distributed around the world. Disney has become intertwined with childhood fantasies and imaginative play. This Halloween, I saw many little girls dressed up as their favorite Disney princess. Little girls love to pretend that they are a Disney princess. The princesses have become a symbol of femininity, grace and beauty. The Disney princesses can be found everywhere around us, on coats, backpacks, lunch boxes, dolls, and P.J.’s (just to name a very few).

I too have a cute little girl. She is feminine, graceful and beautiful. But unfortunately, there is not a Disney princess for her to imagine being. Why? My daughter is black. Disney has never had a female black character in any of their major motion pictures. All of my daughters friends, whether Asian, Caucasian (in many hair shades), Native-American, or Middle Eastern, have Disney icons to tell them they are beautiful. My daughter and millions of beautiful black girls around the world have been excluded from the Disney Princess Parties.

What message is Disney sending to these impressionable little girls? Why has Disney chosen to ignore such a large American population (not to mention world population)? Almost every other major toy manufacturer in American now produces black dolls. Disney does not have one.

This petition is to ask Disney to stop excluding black characters from their princess line-up. The time has come for Disney to move into the 21st century and recognize that black is beautiful too. There are so many wonderful princess stories and folklore from the African continent; surely one of these would merit a cartoon! Lets stop sending the message to our children that only light skin is feminine, graceful and beautiful. There are so many strong black queens and princesses in our past, that our little girls deserve to be included.

Disney, it is time for a beautiful black princess!
Sincerely,

The Undersigned”

 Please sign my friend’s Petition!!! HERE

 

Just a quick update to say that no babies were abandoned in Zambia in the month of October.  That’s a wonderful thing and I don’t mind waiting.  I keep praying that Heavenly Father will help me find my girls.  I will just have to be patient.